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The Mental Load

A HONEST THOUGHT PROCESS....

Yesterday evening I was sitting in my daughters room, while she was playing. She kept bringing toys over to me, hoping I would get down on the floor and play, but I was so exhausted, and staring into space, just feeling overwhelmed.....


Only just 30 minutes before, at the dinner table my husband was talking to me and I was half listening, my mind was going a mile a minute. All I could think about was the long list of “to do’s” --- Doctor’s appointments that need to be made; reviewing clothing inventory for my daughter who is growing out of everything; visualizing my pantry and fridge & scanning through the food we have left in the house and what meals I can prepare up until the next grocery day; mental math of our budget for the month and how much we have gone over and I pin point exactly when/how; plus 20 other things that need to get done or need attention-- all while half listening to my husband and making sure my daughter is eating more and playing less with her dinner....and still I have barely touched my dinner.


That mental load is an exhaustion all within itself on top of the physical requirements: of running the household; chasing my 17 month old; wifing to my husband; managing ( part-time) work; planning a new business venture; and then some....


At the end of a very LONG day, I am then left with a few moments to tend to me but instead all I can muster up is laying down in my bed - and pissed at myself for not fitting in things I need to do for me - SELF-CARE — I need a better BALANCE!!!!! I do not want to completely lose myself... and I feel like I am getting dangerously close....


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